It’s 2:26am and I am just now finishing up my blogs for tomorrow’s roundup.

I really wish that I would stop worrying about the blog being successful b/c if I didn’t put an extreme amount of thought into it, I could probably get to sleep at a decent hour (maybe…I do have insomnia, though).

I will say this…one of the best pieces of advice that a former friend gave me was to just go for it, stick to it for a couple months and if it doesn’t move, then you know to let it go. Although I’m usually not apprehensive about shit (except singing in front of a large crowd…scares me outta my mind), I will admit that I was afraid to do the blog. I’m an extremely competitive person but I also believe in keeping it friendly, meaning…there’s no need in being nasty towards one another when it’s not warranted. I didn’t want to be a part of the things that I heard that go on in the blogosphere but when you decide to become a blogger, you subject yourself to the bullshit b/c of everyone else’s definition of competition. I started making plans for the blog MONTHS ago (way before it’s launch in June) but I would always find an excuse to put it off. Granted, I’m still not doing the numbers that my peers are doing BUT the blog is moving. I see it. And as tedious as it may be sometimes, the one thing that I will give myself a pat on the back for is that I still just do it. In the past, I have been the one to give things up because I either lost interest in it fairly quickly (no…VERY VERY quickly) or it would become less of an interest to me b/c it wasn’t doing what I expected it to do. Yup, I’m only about three solid months in but trust me, if you knew me…even by the ounce…and then saw how feverishly I work to try to at least make MissJia.com a blip on SOMEBODY’s radar, you’d probably applaud me too.

And I’m also happy because, although rare, I hear what people say. I know that there are people out there (even some loud mouth bloggers…trust me, I’m watching you) who have their doubts. But what they don’t know is my mouth piece is just as big as theirs and I’m fully capable. Don’t put me in a box b/c you can’t think outside of one.

I’m still working, yall. Shout out to all of my peers who have reached out to me in tremendous ways. They know who they are…no need to ‘name drop,’ as that’s not my style anyway. What I will say is that, on the days that I get frustrated or just get tired of editing, searching, typing, etc., I just think about the other side of the tracks that I could be on OR how I hate people to be the controlling force of me. And I snap out of it real quick.

To those of you who make it a point to try and tell me what I can’t/won’t/shant do, please note that your voices are most certainly heard. I just choose to put that bitch in Chinese so I have an excuse not to pay attention to your ass.

j.