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Emotionally Unavailable

Jia — Fri, 11 Dec 2009 05:18:07 +0000

Oh boy, today was a trip. Nothing bad but…I think that I’ll reserve at least part of it for Youtube. I owe you guys a video this week anyway.

You know, I think that for now, God wants me to be single as heck. As hell. Whatever. The reason I say that is not b/c I haven’t met anyone worth the time. But I think that right now, my focus is so strong that He is somehow looking out and making sure I maintain that momentum. It gets hard because I’ve never been in a position with actual “business” before everyone else. I’ve also noticed that no matter what pace YOUR life is moving, everybody else has a pace that they’re either trying to catch up to or simply trying to follow. It’s never fair or considerate to ask someone to change their focus just so you can get whatever emotions you need from them. I’m learning that…doesn’t mean I mastered it.

Additionally, I’ve also learned that I actually don’t like guys who “need” me. To want me is one thing but to act as though my time is somehow less important than yours is another. Having recently moved back to Atlanta after a year and a half long hiatus, I’m reacquainting myself with the city I love so much, trying to make sure that the steps that I FEEL have been ordered for me are handled with the patience and diligence they so rightfully deserve. People who can’t understand that are lost. It’s selfish and ridiculous to ask someone to *pause* their life and blessings b/c of YOU and your agenda.

I don’t like that…and I’ll make for damn sure I don’t give off the same energy.

Goodnite.

Food for Thought

Jia — Mon, 02 Nov 2009 07:48:46 +0000

It’s not my fault if you perceive me as perfect and I let you down…

Message

Jia — Sat, 26 Sep 2009 01:07:41 +0000

Another quick message before I go shower this funk off…

As I’ve gotten a “WEE” bit more knowledgeable of the (entertainment) blogging game, one thing that I am learning QUICK is that everybody doesn’t think like I do.

Before I even thought of doing a celebrity entertainment blog, I researched. Yea, it’s human nature for you to want to run to the nearest guru of _____ and ask a million questions if it’s a subject that’s new to you. Now, I’m not saying that NO other blogger did this but I looked at as many aspects of blogging as I could on my own before I started asking questions. I learned in school many years ago that if you don’t look for certain things on your own, allowing yourself to become as knowledgeable about whatever it is that you’re pursuing, then you’re rendering yourself useless to you.

As I said a few days ago in a previous entry, I get asked questions all the time and because I know that “I” had questions, I don’t mind answering them. But I literally grit my teeth when I get asked simple things such as “what blog platform should I use, where do I get pictures from, etc., etc., etc” when those things (plus much more) are available via google.

Now trust me…you’ll never see me be a bitch about it. One thing I can’t stand is an indignant ass ANYTHING that thinks that just b/c they “made it” (which I have not yet…trust me), they have to look down their noses at those who are still trying. But I’m reminded of an old Chinese (I THINK?) proverb:

Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day. Teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime.

And it works the same in blogging…if I simply GIVE you answers without you putting in any research of your own, you’ll only learn to come back to me (or another blogger) the next day or the next month with questions regarding your next move. However, if I encourage you to FIRST research on your own, learn about what it is that you’re doing before diving head first into it, then I feel that you’re being empowered for your own future as blogger. Again, asking questions is not the problem…but not trying to find the answer on your own first is.

PS: Please note…I have been blogging since 2004. This is, however, my first time taking the entertainment route and while I’m still learning (much to many people’s disbelief), I still believe in empowering yourself to learn as much as you can BEFORE reaching out to ask questions. No offense meant…I’m just calling it as I see it.

hellur

Jia — Mon, 16 Mar 2009 06:03:00 +0000

2:03 am and I just completed three assignments that were all due by no later than Wednesday. I was ON it, man. I noticed that I was always turning my assignment in the day that it was due. Our work isn’t due until 3am mountain time (so 5am for me) and I was taking full advantage of that. However, I really decided to pull myself out of that madness for fear of making it a true habit as time progresses. So far, I am truly LOVING online classes and had I know what the deal was months back, I would’ve been in this shit when I FIRST found out about them. Who knew?

Anyway, I have a couple things that I want to look up before I head to bed but I do want to say…make sure you stay tuned to this blog (or MAYBE Youtube, if it’s not deleted) in the months to come. I swear, I’m really going to have to let some things OUT! It’s going to be crazy, I’m sure…but many of you will most certainly be able to relate.

If you don’t like taking pills (laxatives, stool softeners, etc), then I ENCOURAGE you (oh so strongly) to invest in some apple juice. Unless it’s mixed with Sprite, I’m really not into apple juice all that much. However, I was online looking for natural remedies to umm…’stopped-up-edness,’ and found that apple juice is one way to go. I wasn’t trying to fuck with prune juice. Oh, hell naw! I remember my mother forcing me to drink that when I was little to keep me ‘regular,’ but I be damned if I’m going to subject myself to that madness again…on purpose!

Well, let me get to googling all the crap I wrote on my hand while at work today so tha I can carry my butt to bed! I hope you guys had a safe and happy weekend!

Let’s Talk About It

Jia — Fri, 20 Feb 2009 00:26:00 +0000

Alright…this week has been a busy one. Seriously!

I started a new job and am happy about it b/c I seriously got TIRED of just sitting here and doing nothing b/c I “could.” I have been working for years so it just “felt right” to be able to get up in the morning and have a purpose. I am exhausted though but that’s to be expected, especially considering I hadn’t worked since I left my last job in August.

My classes started today. For those who have fallen behind, I am currently enrolled 100% online at South University. It’s a school based in Savannah, GA but they also hav an online division as well. I have always said that I would do better at online classes but I can see RIGHT NOW that I have to pull out my trusty ‘planner’ and really write down what’s due and when! Two classes are no joke! It’s funny looking at the discussion boards, knowing that we’re required to respond to other students’ postings to be graded. I see the same girl responding to EVERYBODY’s post! LOL! Girl you betta do it! Get your “A” boo boo! LMAO I just turned in three assignments in a matter of an hour or so. They were fairly easy but I’m sure that once we start moving into the meat and potatoes of the course, it’ll be nuts!

That being said, I’m about to be a lame. It’s only 7:30 but I am about to shower and head to bed. I have to be at work at 7am tomorrow, have a doctors appt as SOON as I get off and then have to turn in two assignments! Not the business, but it’s life, right?

Nonetheless, I promise to keep you guys posted and definitely keep up with my blogging! I thank you for reading!

Hey Now!

Jia — Thu, 12 Feb 2009 01:29:00 +0000

I am so out of it right now, for reasons I refuse to discuss online but I just wanted to pop in and give some updates.

First off, I am tired! And next week, it gets worse! My new quarter of school starts on the 19th (I hate when shit doesn’t start on a Monday…fucks up my spirit). Also, I’m going to attempt to start working on Monday (yes…in addition to my fulltime school schedule). My parents advised me against it but I’ve had a job since I was 13/14 years old. It feels ‘weird’ not working.

Also, I need new stories for my website, Project New Era. As I’ve said many times before, I do not go around pushing this blog, my Youtube channel or anything else in between. But that site is something I do try to heavily endorse, as it serves a REAL purpose and (in my ever so humble opinion) fills somewhat of a void. We need a site like this. I don’t make ANY money off this site. I have been told that I should throw advertisements and things of the like on the site but have refused. I simply want to provide useful information.

I went out with one of my homegirls a couple nights ago. She was my BEST friend in jr. high. I mean we were UBER tight! Made no sense how close we were. Nonetheless, we reconnected and she’s the same girl I remember from way back then, solidifying my reason for loving her from the start!

To everyone else…I am sorry if I have been silent on various IMs, Twitter, Myspace, whatever. Like I said, I am really trying to piece some things together in addition to preparing myself for everything that’s pending for next week. I’m not purposely trying to be negligent…just taking a step back so I can make sure that I remember to breathe! *smiles

I guess that’s it! OH and one other thing…don’t you just love folks who are so miserable with themselves that they try to make you feel as though you should feel the same way about you? Everybody has that type of toxic person in their lives…be it in reality or online. Just brush your shoulders off and keep it moving!

Happy (ending) hump day you guys!