I Talk To Myself
…and don’t act like I’m the only one.
So I’m online listening to music to post to the blog and decided to take a mini break to check out profiles on Facebook.
I noticed that a lot of my ‘friends’ have done status updates and one of the guy’s pictures caught my eye.Here is the convo I had with myself.
Me: Dang, he looks like he might be cute!
Me: Don’t even get crunk b/c you know how thumbnail pics are. They’re cute as a thumbnail but when you click on ‘em, it’s another story.
Me: True, let me flip through these pics.
Me: Mmmhmm…
Me: Damn, he skinny as hell. And I bet he got a nice size peen. *flips through more pics*
Me: I swear that is ALL you think about!
Me: Oh wow..but this pic…looks like he doesn’t even like vagina.
Me: *throws glitter*
Don’t judge me…you guys do it too. Goodnight.
Day 4: Insanity (Cardio Recovery)
Today was a 33 minute workout. And basically what Shaun T. does is take you through a series of stretches but he does a lot of “pulse” work too. You still sweat but it’s just not as…not NEARLY as intense as the other days. Still a good workout. I’m amazed at one of my friends who is also doing the work out. He’s only been on it for 5 days and already notices a change. It’s definitely that intense, I’ll tell you that.
I had to laugh at one part during the video when Shaun T. had us switch sides for the lunges and instead of him doing his normal switch, this mufucka ‘twirled.’ LMAO! I guess that was his way of secretly snapping all the lusting vaginas out there back into reality and reminding them that he is GAY GAY GAY! Peep THIS clip of him and his new Fit Kids workout. Don’t say he’s just acting flimsy b/c it’s children; he’s doing it b/c that’s his element. He’s so gay! *throws glitter*
Day 5 is tomorrow and I’m doing that fairly early in the morning. Tomorrow evening I’m going running with my mom. Lemme know if you’re working out and how it’s going! Back to my darling twit-fam I go!
Congratulations, Brook!
I just wanted to send more congrats out to the homie, Brook, for landing a publishing deal and will be releasing her first book in February! I am especially happy because I am a faithful reader of her blog and one of her followers on Twitter. I’ve watched in disgust how some folks have tried to play her to the left and dismissed her as a chick who couldn’t do more than working a pole. In spite of how many may prejudge, the fact is there are tons of intelligent women out there who involve themselves in things that you may not agree with but at the end of the day, there’s usually more to them than meets the eye (and I say usually because there’s still a TROTH of dumb bitches in the industry who wouldn’t ‘get it’ if you stuck it in their ass and screwed them with it). As I said last night, you shouldn’t pigeon hole people. Period. A girl works a non-conventional job, you’re mad and disrespect her because of it. A girl puts forth the effort to change, to have better and BE better and you get busy with throwing daggers at her in an effort to diminish her belief in herself just because YOU don’t want to see the vision. Miserable people, I tell ya. But it takes a strong, brave bitch to continue rising against the magnetic force that tries to hold her down! Who mad?
Congratulations, Brook…see you at the top!
Day 3: Insanity (Cardio Power & Resistance)
The sweat ain’t no joke! I’m so serious. I literally fell out on the bathroom floor when I was done! Shaun T. needs to go to hell calling that first 15 minutes a damn warm up! That warm up IS a work OUT! It was a lot of cardio, lots of upper body training using your own body weight. Very cool. I think I fucked up my water bottle b/c I clearly had two of them during the entire 40 minute workout. Oh and to those wondering about the FULL body pics, trust…I got them. You’ll just have to wait and see!
I’ve said it before but here it goes again…if it’s in your budget, get the Insanity DVD set. I know it’s only been three days for me but I’ve watched the set and he REALLY pushes you through. I own a LOT of DVD sets from late night TV watching but this one, SO FAR, is the best one I’ve ever purchased.
On to tomorrow…but for now, a bath + salt!
PS: Someone asked me why did I name this blog ‘she so fly.’ Trust me, I ain’t tooting my own horn. I got it from that song that R. Kelly did with T-Pain & T.I…in one part of the song, T-Pain says “She so fly, she so cool…hey shawty, what it do?” Anyway, during the time that the song was hot, I use to KILL that part of the song. I’d walk around randomly singing JUST THAT part and my homegirl said “Bitch it’s more to the song than that.” HA! It’s just been my “thing” so I did it b/c I’m silly (and I know it annoys the fuck outta her everytime she comes to my blog HA!!!).
Oh and PSS or PPS (depending on your pref.)…I don’t go for ‘cute’ when I work out. I could give a damn about being cute in some after workout photos. I’m silly…I ain’t prissy. Get over it! POW!
Jamie Foxworth & Porn
Can’t wait til this airs. The shit that Mary Carey says at the 32 second + mark is the REALEST! Towards the end, Jamie says that she would’ve made the same thing doing a scene that she made if she was still on Family Matters. So…they paid her $400-1000/episode? If so, she got played b/c I KNOW Urkel was getting much more than that.
The industry is bullshit, folks. And I don’t say that b/c I can’t…I say that b/c I choose. HUGE difference.
On a sidenote…if you’ve never had any real perceptions of what it is to have a friend in your life, the industry will teach you real quick. Aside from what I stated in my previous entry, I recall a very specific incident where I was at a ‘house’ party. At that time, I was heavily involved in popping (x) pills. I’m not talking light weight taking one once every blue moon. I’m talking about waking up, brushing my teeth and popping them almost all day like they were candy. Anyway, at the party, I remember taking a pill that was sold to me by a male who worked in the industry. After about an hour of it not working, I took a half of one and thought “Okay, this should do me in REAL quick.” Well like 2.5 hours had passed and I still felt nothing. Initially I thought that I needed to blame my supplier b/c the shit was weak! One of the girls there (someone who you guys would know if I mentioned her) asked me could she have one of my pills since _____ had sold out. She specifically stated that she wanted 1/2 of one b/c whole ones always had her out of control. I agreed, gave her the half and decided that “I” would take that pill PLUS another whole one. Three pills in total. Within 10 minutes, I felt it. But I felt weird. I remember losing my breath, my heart beating out of control and I was having continuous feelings of blacking out. I remember I ran in the room and told them that I needed to go to the hospital b/c I think I may have overdone it. The girl who took my 1/2 pill said “Girl chill out, you’re just high. Go have a seat and drink another shot.” Crazy enough, I went back into the living room, sat on the couch and instantly felt myself going in and out. I felt my hands…they were cold as hell. My feet were numb and the bottom of them were blue. At this point, two girls (who I consider my babies/sisters and are NO LONGER working in the business yay) said “Yall I think we need to call an ambulance b/c something really is wrong with her.” This story is long enough…but do you know that everybody in that house, except the two girls that I now consider my sisters, literally ran to a bedroom and locked themselves in and were PISSED when the ambulance came? They said “You brought too much attention to this house.” When I went to the hospital, three police officers came in my room after they gave me ‘something’ (don’t remember what it was) to clear my stomach. The cop asked my ‘sisters’ to see my ID. They saw that I was from Georgia and asked why was I in Cali. “Work”…I said and left it at that. He said “Look, we did a quick run on your ID and you’re clean. Technically I could take you to jail after being released from the hospital but I wont. Just be careful and take care of yourself.” I remember being relieved like HELL that I didn’t have to go to jail. And aside from learning the lesson that drugs REALLY ARE bad, I also learned that the bitches in the industry only love you when they think that you can do something for them. If you are, in any way, bringing them money or ‘staying in your lane,’ you’re good to go. And while I don’t blame ANYBODY for my mistake with doing drugs, I will say that that was one (of many) swift kicks in the ass that reminded me that I really needed to take my ass back to the east coast.
Quote me on that one.
(sorry the story is so choppy. hard shit to recall and talk about)
WYSIWYG
One of the most beneficial traits that I possess as a Cancer is my observant behavior. When I was young(er), I was considered weird for sitting in the cut and scoping people out before I agreed to deal with them. And now that I’m older, there are people who have to learn hard but fast lessons on WHY it’s good to be this way.
With me, what you see is what you get. There’s no way that I could have two sides to me like a Gemini. I’ve very upfront, I don’t hold back, I say/do things that others may find somewhat offensive but at the end of the day, I stick by who I am. There are no questions. Yes indeed, people may not LIKE that person but again, WYSIWYG (what you see is what you get).
This is why I could never wrap my mind around those who feign realness…or those that feign modesty…or ANYTHING for that matter when the truth is, they’re only a copy of what someone else already is but without that pinch of boldness. *sigh, I’m annoyed with myself because I KNOW what it is that I’m trying to say but the words aren’t quite making their way to this blog as I’d like them to.
Let me start over (I probably could’ve erased the rest, huh? haha)…I am not a ‘personality.’ I am not something that I created in effort to gain popularity, to overcome shyness, to be loved or understood…I’m me. This would include a person that some won’t care for, a hoochie, a loud mouth, an opinionated bitch, etc., etc., etc. But at the end of the day, you’ll never be able to say that you didn’t know my angle b/c I spent time faking it out. What you see is EXACTLY what you get. To be continued…