You Know How Diddy Said “Sleep is Forbidden?”
…well I think that my spirit is his personal Farnsworth Bentley b/c I NEVER get any sleep.
It’s now 7:14am…I woke up on Tuesday at around 11:30. I am CLOSE to being UP for 24 hours. I am so sick of benadryl, ambien, warm milk and reading a book, only to just lay there.
The shit fucking sucks.
In the A, I had a reason to stay up all crazy hours of the night b/c I was usually hanging out with friends or in the streets somewhere. NC? I don’t have homies here (translate: I’m tired of folks not wanting to do shit so I’m done asking) so I LITERALLY sit at home all the time. There’s only ONE chick that I really roll hard with and that’s ONLY when she can get a sitter. Everybody else? Lame…but all that is to the left of the point. The point is…
I NEED SOME FUCKING SLEEP!!!!
*cries
Today is…
…indeed one of “those” days.
I Support the Naked Hustle
the fabric of my life
You guys know I absolutely LOVE sharing the emails I receive, right? Now, it doesn’t happen TOO often but when they do, it cracks me up b/c it reminds me that people are SO one dimensional that it’s pathetic! Have a look….
Michael Pough/mbttp8587@yahoo.com
How come u quit porn? U were very good I liked u. U had a nice body u can fuck and u suck dick very well. What happened?
Isn’t that cute? Thanks for the compliment (I guess) but no dice, buddy. I will tell you what happened, though…it’s called common sense. I lost mine for a little while but when I snapped back to, that part of me had to go. You’re lucky I’m on a 24 hour suspension from cursing b/c you KNOW you’d get a major one. Maybe I will wait to rip you a new one at 6:01pm? POW!!!
PS: A quick email “search” brought up THIS blank Myspace profile (a chick named Brandie) but a NAME search brought up THIS blank Myspace profile. Both in Florida. This is either an odd coincidence or I just might have a gender bending hater on my hands! HELP!
Death of 13: Day TIN
So today, I didn’t work out. I had one of those days where it seems like all the “little” things were working my nerves…and even though working out releases secretions and shit that make you more joyous, I couldn’t move myself to do it. Not today. I even ate something bad…well a third of it. One of those Domino’s bowls? Yea, I ate a third of that b/c it just seems that it turned my stomach. Nonetheless I’m back on it tomorrow.
I am really going to start working on my other website. It’s going to be a bit more interactive and submission based but I think it’ll be fun and will go well with what I do on Youtube. I won’t give away too much but let’s just say that I’m gonna give you the opportunity to bitch just as much as I do!
Beyond that, nothing. I keep pushing Project New Era to the wayside and even though everyone repeatedly tells me that it’s “okay” b/c I try to work so hard on Miss Jia, I feel that it isn’t b/c that site is needed. Another celebrity gossip site (in all truthfulness) wasn’t needed nearly as much as PNE is. If you have stories related to the theme of the site, please submit them to info@projectnewera.com. I’m gonna do better. Promise!
That being said, I’m about to make a sandwich of SOME sort b/c I am starving. I’m going to try and get some sleep but right now, it’s not looking too great! I do think that Friday/Saturday would be an awesome day for me to work on the other site that I have in mind. I just have to make sure I find time to balance it all.
PS: Sorry for my rants yesterday No the fuck I’m not….
j.
Oh, I Forgot
It’s 2:26am and I am just now finishing up my blogs for tomorrow’s roundup.
I really wish that I would stop worrying about the blog being successful b/c if I didn’t put an extreme amount of thought into it, I could probably get to sleep at a decent hour (maybe…I do have insomnia, though).
I will say this…one of the best pieces of advice that a former friend gave me was to just go for it, stick to it for a couple months and if it doesn’t move, then you know to let it go. Although I’m usually not apprehensive about shit (except singing in front of a large crowd…scares me outta my mind), I will admit that I was afraid to do the blog. I’m an extremely competitive person but I also believe in keeping it friendly, meaning…there’s no need in being nasty towards one another when it’s not warranted. I didn’t want to be a part of the things that I heard that go on in the blogosphere but when you decide to become a blogger, you subject yourself to the bullshit b/c of everyone else’s definition of competition. I started making plans for the blog MONTHS ago (way before it’s launch in June) but I would always find an excuse to put it off. Granted, I’m still not doing the numbers that my peers are doing BUT the blog is moving. I see it. And as tedious as it may be sometimes, the one thing that I will give myself a pat on the back for is that I still just do it. In the past, I have been the one to give things up because I either lost interest in it fairly quickly (no…VERY VERY quickly) or it would become less of an interest to me b/c it wasn’t doing what I expected it to do. Yup, I’m only about three solid months in but trust me, if you knew me…even by the ounce…and then saw how feverishly I work to try to at least make MissJia.com a blip on SOMEBODY’s radar, you’d probably applaud me too.
And I’m also happy because, although rare, I hear what people say. I know that there are people out there (even some loud mouth bloggers…trust me, I’m watching you) who have their doubts. But what they don’t know is my mouth piece is just as big as theirs and I’m fully capable. Don’t put me in a box b/c you can’t think outside of one.
I’m still working, yall. Shout out to all of my peers who have reached out to me in tremendous ways. They know who they are…no need to ‘name drop,’ as that’s not my style anyway. What I will say is that, on the days that I get frustrated or just get tired of editing, searching, typing, etc., I just think about the other side of the tracks that I could be on OR how I hate people to be the controlling force of me. And I snap out of it real quick.
To those of you who make it a point to try and tell me what I can’t/won’t/shant do, please note that your voices are most certainly heard. I just choose to put that bitch in Chinese so I have an excuse not to pay attention to your ass.
j.